ivanhoe reigned supreme. nth to be happy abt actly cos I wasn't very close to my OG. i don't unds why i'm feeling unethu abt orientation and disinterested in making new friends, like seriously. i hope things will change for the better cos i'm currently a pathetic depressed soul, trying not to be affected by the dumbing down effect.
i used to step into VJ every day full of rigour, purpose, meaning, looking forward to each day meeting the friends i love, the teachers who stand by me. but now you know when i step into VJ, the first quest that comes to my mind is: where am i supposed to go now. HAI.
it doesn't help when you have a civics tutor who's gna talk to himself during lessons, signalling a strong sense of inconfidence by saying: actly i'm not sure what i shld teach cos i dno what's gna come out for the As.
i'm thankful for my fellow yr ones in soccer. at least i can talk to the pple i'm closer to, share a common way of thinking does help and trng with joan makes my life brighter. trng momentarily takes the darkness outta my life. at least i can play with my happening friends and stop plunging myself into self-denial. i just needa make new friends, and stop standing in the middle of nowhere amongst the guys during assembly like some lost soul with bethany.

why do we have to steal glances from afar. i don't like it x 100 000 infinity times okay. i'm just screwing up all my human interpersonal relationships these days lah. never felt that i was that bad at making new friends, that bad at adapting a new culture, environment.
i really don't like this feeling lahhhhhhhh!!!! hope things will get better in the days to come and stop relying so much on my old friends. xie le. i nver realised how far we had gone as friends, the level of mutual understanding, telepathy. o wells, move on grace move on, stop living in the shadows of the past and plunging yourself into self-denial. friends, we can do this together man.